Happy Halloween everyone! I'm getting ready for all the kiddies! We had a baby boom in our neighborhood several years ago and we ran out of candy last year. I'm ready for the little ghouls, goblins and vampires this year!
Saturday, October 31, 2009
A gain today of 2.2 lbs this week...I could blame it on TOM, but seriously, it can't all be TOM. I wish I was bingeing and overeating, not exercising and sitting on my ass! I wish it was because I was eating through a bag of Halloween candy or fast food! I wish I wasn't tracking! At least, those things would explain why I've been stuck, losing and gaining the same 5 lbs over and over! It is really pissing me off and is so disappointing! I just want an explanation! I need a reason, but in the "world of weight loss" there may not be one (at least for my body). That is hard for me to deal with.
I still have so much weight to lose, and there is no way that my body can be comfortable at this weight! If the problem is medical, hormonal or something entirely different, I want to know what it is and figure it out. I've been stuck for almost 6 months now and it is really frustrating.
I cannot let it get me down though!! There is no way in hell I'm throwing in the towel. The past me would have given up 5 months ago. The new me knows that it will pay off, it's the when that is indeterminate.
In all honesty, I feel better knowing that I'm taking care of myself by eating healthy and exercising. I just wish the scale would reflect it.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
I love Kale and have eaten since I was a kid. It is a "southern thing", at least where I was from, to eat greens (collards, mustard, turnip, and kale) religiously. Today, I tried a different kale called Lacinato Kale. It is actually really pretty. Very deep green, with long, strong leaves. Since I love kale, I wanted to give them a try.
I cleaned it, chopped it and used the recipe found at New Roots Organic.
Let's just say they were pretty tasty, with a splash of balsamic vinegar.
I also went to the gym today and did 1 and half hours of cardio (elliptical, bike, stairclimber combo). Came home and ate lunch, hung out with the little one, tried to see if she would nap (that was a no go!!). Anyway, now I am chilling, drinking a small glass of red wine, will the hubby listens to jazz.
I love weight loss success stories. I find such inspiration in reading and seeing them, because it reminds me that I can do it! When someone like me, who has struggled with their weight, obtains weight loss by exercising and diet changes, it reminds me that it is possible to reach my goal.
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Haa! Haa! Not that booty! ;-)
The box was quite heavy and I got it all for under $35 dollars.
There is probably more stuff, but I can't think of them right now. Everything, but the lemons and celery were locally or Washington grown, so I felt good supporting local farms. I loved that the Brussels Sprouts where still on the stalk!
Okay, off to watch The Biggest Loser!
Sunday, October 25, 2009
I came across a Pumpkin Muffin Recipe that I found on the blog Simply Savor. Because I'm doing Weight Watchers, I can plug in recipes online at weightwatchers.com and it gives me a points value per serving. For a 1 serving (12 muffins total), they came out to 3 points each. I made some changes, by using sugar-free maple syrup to save some calories. I love the fact that a 15 oz. can of pumpkin is 2 points. You could leave out the chocolate chips and it will be 2 points per muffin, but I find that everything tastes better with chocolate! ;-)
It has been a really rainy today (of course, being in the Pacific Northwest its a common occurrence), but I needed to exercise. I went to the gym for 1.5 hours and did the elliptical and stationary bike. Afterwards, I was a bit hungry and tried a shake that I received from the folks at Mix 1.
I was reading one of the many articles out there are about how important it is to eat or drink something with protein and some carbs after working out. I asked the people at Mix 1 to send me a sample and I was surprised to see they sent me quite a few.
I decided to carry one with me to the gym and had it in the car on the way home. Usually when I work out for a long time, I get a bit hungry and I want something healthy to eat or drink. I don't want to ruin all my hard work by grabbing something unhealthy. I usually eat a piece of fruit, so it was nice to have something different.
These shakes will be great for recovery, a possible meal replacement, or just a snack. The Mix 1 Mix Berry Protein I had after the gym is 200 calories, 15 grams of protein, 2.5 grams of fat, and 3 grams fiber (4 Weight Watchers Points). They do have a 115 calorie Hi-Oxidant Fiber one that comes out to 2 Weight Watchers Points. If it tastes as good as the protein shake (which I give 2 thumbs up), it will be a great snack to throw in my bag on the run.
I saw them at Fred Meyer and they are about $2.00 each, but they were having a sale 2 for $3.00. So, for the price, it isn't bad compared to the other shakes and drinks.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
The family and I had a nice hike today. It was overcast and around 50 degrees F, but we bundled up and decided to do some of the trails on Tiger Mountain. It was a great hike and we got about 3 miles done. I want to go to the summit one day, but I will have to leave the little one at home. She isn't ready for the 6.2 mile round trip walk yet. However, it will be nice to one day do that with her when she is older.
There were lots of folks that had the same idea we did and folks were out walking the trails. Some were even those "hard core" hikers with huge packs. I guess some of the trails can be used for practice for longer hikes. The trails vary with intensity and terrain, which I like.
The kid got tired towards the end, but she held up pretty well. She asked when we were going to do it again. I think we have another hiking lover!
Had my Weight Watchers meeting today and I gained .6 lbs. It's frustrating, especially when I had no change last week, but that's okay. My leader said that I need to treat it as a mystery that needs solving.
What am I doing, if anything, that I can change? Am I eating the same calories at the same time, everyday? Do I need to change up the foods I'm eating? Do I need more exercise? Am I drinking enough water? Am I eating enough fruits and veggies? Too many carbs or not enough carbs?
These are questions I've been asking myself over and over again to get my weight loss jump started again. It seems that my body knows how to maintain, but I want to start losing again. Eventually, I'll figure it out.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Watching The Biggest Loser tonight, I realize that I have such an advantage over those folks who are on the show. I am losing weight and working towards a healthier lifestyle while at home living my life. Some of the folks on the Blue and Black team were talking about how they didn't want to go home because they couldn't do "it" at home. Eventually, these folks are going to have to go home. They are going to have to learn to lose or maintain weight at home living their lives.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
No change this week. Ugh, so frustrating!! We talked about putting yourself first in my Weight Watchers meeting. I really need to work on that, even though I know how important it is to take care of myself, I end up putting other people's needs (i.e. family) before mine. I have to keep reminding myself that by becoming healthier, more physically fit and less fat, I am making myself better, not only for me, but for my family too. It is such a hard lesson to learn.
Friday, October 16, 2009
I know this isn't about weight loss, but I read this I was like WTF?? Seriously? I thought today was October 16, 2009, not 1965. If you can't tell by the pictures below, my hubbie is White/Caucasian and I am Black/African-American. We have been married 8 years, but together 10. We have a 4-year-old daughter. Supposedly, the Justice of the Peace concern was for the children? Yeah, right. For some reason, I don't believe that.
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Saturday, October 10, 2009
When you are trying to lose weight, in the beginning, you just want the weight to just fall on off your body. However, as time goes on, you notice that it doesn't work that way. Weight loss is a process, sometimes an extremely slow process of taking one step forward, two steps back. It is discouraging for those who want an instant fix and to see instant results from their efforts. However, I'm in it for the long haul so any little bit of weight loss, no matter how small, feels so dang good.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
As with any blog award, there are some rules that apply, which are listed below.
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Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I watched The Biggest Loser (TBL) last night and there was a very interesting challenge. The kitchen was locked down the entire week and everyone had to order out for all their meals. For those who eat out a lot and are trying to be conscious of portion sizes and what's in the food (fat, fiber, etc., etc.), and also trying to lose weight, you know that its tough to eat out.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
I got an award today from Amazon Runner! Thank you for the awesome award! Go check out her blog. She is doing so great in her weight loss/healthy life journey. It's inspirational!
I wanted to get up early, before the kid, and get some treadmill action in. Because I had trouble sleeping last night, I didn't do as planned this morning. This evening, when the hubby is home, I will get in some exercise. I'm determined. I am beginning to notice that when I don't do any activity, the next day I don't feel all that great.
Monday, October 5, 2009
I have a friend, who like me is overweight. Lets call her Abby. Abby decided several years ago to forgo dieting and weight loss, and just accept being overweight, i.e. fat acceptance. She seems happy with her decision and I have been very supportive of her. She is smart, funny, out-going, active, travels, and loves life. She is my friend, I love her and I want her to be happy.
So, what's the problem? I began to notice some months back that my decision to lose weight has caused some friction, for lack of a better word. I don't bring up my weight loss or talk about it with her, but of course she has noticed the change in my body, its kind of obvious. I remember when I got around 300 lbs, she told me how great I looked and that I didn't need to lose any more weight. I didn't feel good at 300lbs and I told her that I had a goal weight in mind, but never mentioned what it was or how much more I wanted to lose. I thanked her because 70+lbs is no small feat and I did look better, but physically I still felt like crap. Other things were said, stuff I don't want to get into, but since then I knew not to bring up my weight loss with her.
Flash forward a year later, after several off-hand comments throughout the year about how "I would gain my weight back" or about how "95% of people who lose gain back their weight plus some" or that she didn't understand why I am "still trying to lose weight" but that I should "focus on accepting myself". I totally don't mind focusing on accepting myself or working on making myself a better person, but why can't I continue to lose weight in the process? According to her, "if I accepted myself, I wouldn't need or want to lose weight." I believe that I can continue to lose weight, but learn to love and accept myself - even better than before. She thinks I'm "delusional".
Today, I was talking with another friend, lets call her Betty, about the situation and some of the comments made by Abby. Betty knows Abby, but doesn't "know" her. Betty thinks that I should cut Abby lose, because I don't need the negativity. Betty's theory is that because I'm not the "biggest" in our group of friends/acquaintances anymore, that Abby is having issues with it. I don't think that is the reason, but I'm not sure. Abby has also commented on my weight loss to other friends and not in a positive way. Others have called her on negativity, but hearing about it makes me sad. I told Betty I didn't want to hear about the comments anymore.
I have heard and read about people who lose friendships because one friend loses a significant amount of weight and the dynamics of that friendship changes. I just never thought it would be an issue in my life, but now I'm all weirded out by the whole thing. I'm not sure what I should do or if I should do anything?
The New England Journal of Medicine came out with a study that says that hanging out with fat people, might make you fat. Yeah, crazy huh! You can read about it here. Of course, the study is more technical than just hanging with fatties will cause your thighs to get larger. The study doesn't mention that it is important that people take personal responsibility of one's expanding waistline. It seems there is always someone else to blame. According to the study, it is other fat people.
The gist of the study is that we learn habits. We pick up good or bad habits from people we are close to, i.e. bad eating habits from fat people or good eating habits from skinny people. I think it is a load of horse pucky!
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Ugh! I cannot sleep and I wanted a snack because I ate early today and was craving something (thanks TOM). The old me would have opened up a bag of chips and eaten half or all the bag. The new me had a large glass of water and a handful of some dry roasted edamame. I'm also watching Discovery Health and the show "Inside Brookhaven Obesity Clinic" is on. Why am I watching this, you say? Its a reminder. I could have been one of those people. It is a reminder of where I've been and how far I've come.
One woman on the show is around 370'ish pounds (where I used to be). She is addicted to food and is seeking GBP surgery, but her doctor won't do it because she hasn't "learned" to eat. So, she is going back to Brookhaven to "learn" to eat, so that she can get the okay for the surgery. Well, she is in Brookhaven, but continues to binge eat on pizza and other fast food. Why this hosptial allows food like that to be brought in is beyond me. Its like a drug addict in a rehab center, but still having access to drugs. It kind of makes me angry, because it seems she isn't really trying. She is holding up a spot that could be given to another person who needs and wants to be there. Someone who will actual listen to the doctors and take the steps to fight their obesity.
Anyway, this show is reminding me of where I could have gone, but I made the choice to stop the damage I was doing to my body. I'm so thankful I did. I just continue to take it one day at a time.
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Sunday, October 4, 2009
Weight Watchers Points used: 29
Activity Points Earned:
3 APs for 8600 steps on pedometor (we did a walk around a lake near our house)
3 APs for 35 minutes on treadmill
* I thought it would be good to post to the blog what I'm doing for activity during the week. Not only for me, but also to give folks an idea on what I'm doing.
Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. It has been crazy lately, but I know that isn't an excuse. I had weigh in yesterday and gained 2.4 lbs. I know it was because TOM stopped by for a visit, so the gain wasn't a surprise. I have been feeling sort of in a funk lately too and I haven't been feeling well the past couple of days. Hopefully, I will be my old self again.
This past week, I was also contacted about 3 jobs. One of the jobs is in Texas. I was surprised to get a call out of the blue for a possible position that may lead to relocation (they'll pay everything for the move). I'm open to it. We shall see how it goes, but I'm to the point if the pay is good, I'll take it. The hubby and I will have to have some serious discussions, but I am ready for a change, some sort of change.
Nothing else exciting is going on in my life. Just chugging along at the weight loss, spending time with the kid, job hunting, and trying to eat well. I have good days, and not so good days. I think that it is depressions setting in, because of all the job stuff and the stress it is causing. I just have to keep saying to myself, I can handle it. I won't be given more than I can bear.
Fall is about change and at this time in my life, change may be good. Maybe with the leaves changing, new doors will open for me.