Monday, February 13, 2012

One day and step at a time...

My motivation ebbs and flows.  Some days it is really awesome and I'm kicking booty, eating healthy and exercising.  Other days (and there are lots of those), I'm just want to lay around and eat (and eat, eat and eat some more) myself into a food coma.  I had a pow-wow with a friend about my lack of motivation and she said that it is probably a combo of lots of things, but we narrowed it:

  1. New Job:  The new job is awesome, but it comes with learning everything from scratch basically.  I want to do a good job, but I'm stressed.  I want to do a good job and progress my career.  I'm not getting any younger and it is nice to finally be at a place, in my career where I have the opportunity to grow and stay even until I retire.
  2. Schedule is screwed:  My schedule is out of wack and I haven't gotten a hang of it yet.  When I leave work, pick up the kid and go home, I'm pooped.  I make dinner, help with homework and then I'm pooped some more.  I know there are mom's out there (even single moms) that find the time to go to the gym and exercise.  I haven't found that yet.  So, exercise videos here I come.
  3. Accountability:  I need to journal everything I put in my "pie hole".  I really do!  I know it, but I'm not doing it. I suck! I just need to honest about the crap I'm eating, so I have pulled out my trusty journal and started writing everything I eat down.  It is actually helping me to make better choices and I am getting back to what I know.
I am running scared right now!  Since January 1st, I've gained 15lbs by just "letting myself go" and I have to put the brakes on the train before it derails.  I am awesome at gaining weight!  It is something I am really, really good at (sad to say), but doesn't mean I have to do it and continue to do it.  So, back to the basics.  I know how to do this, so here I go!


Anonymous said...

Just checking in on you doll. Been awhile since you posted. Hope you are doing okay.